always look to the truth

ever been in one of those moods where youre kinda down about stuff and you dont know why? and its just kind of frustrating because you cant figure out how to make things better? yeah, ive kinda been in one of those moods lately...and i think what i do is i start evaluating my life and go down a mental list of things...friendships, my future, myself...and try to pinpoint the area of 'problem.' but then i think i overanalyze and end up with a lot of things that i start pondering too much. so my problem solving method ends up backfiring. one thing i always realize and as obvious as it sounds is that whenever i get into these 'ruts,' i realize that ive somehow pushed the Lord outta my life. not completely of course because that would be impossible...but its like im trying to run my life and fix everything by myself and inevitably am burning out because im not relying on the Lords strength...im not giving Him the glory for anything good...and im not seeking refuge in Him when im weary. so...i was in the gas station today...working real hard as usual...ok not really, i was reading because i was dying of boredom. and since i had found so many different things 'wrong with me' in my self evaluation, it seemed like everything i read was completely applicable. but a bit in Romans 12 stood out a little more than the rest...

"Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone." Romans 12:9-18