an epiphany about love, or lack thereof

im single. and thats ok. honestly...im actually real content with this fact right now. i am nowhere near being ready to be married and i know that. and this is not to say that my millions of friends who are my age or younger who are married, engaged, or close to that, arent ready. they have found who they want to spend the rest of their lives with and thats gotta be awesome - so all my happiness in the world to them. but for me, its just not time. i am not mentally, emotionally, or spiritually ready to be married right now and i know that. the idea of it honestly kinda freaks me out when i think about it...however, i know that one day i will be ready and it will be great. which leads me to my thoughts about my future husband.

i dont know who this lucky :) guy is going to be right now and i think im going to try and stop looking. not that im like registering on online dating sites or trying to get a date a week or stuff like that but i guess what i mean to say is that im going to stop worrying about not being married by the time im x years old. you cant put time limits on God's plan bc when it comes down to it, its not really up to you. i know that right now the Lord is preparing someone for me as He is also preparing me for him. and to think about how God is going to pick someone out who is perfect for you is kinda cool. this person is going to be your best friend in life...they're going to wanna spend the entire rest of their life with one person and that is going to be you...weird to think about, huh? all those little idiosyncratic things that you do that drive other people crazy - they will find endearing and love you for it. you won't care what other people think of you bc you'll know that this one person loves you more than anything. and maybe you think im a hopeless romantic for saying stuff like this but i honestly believe it. ive never fallen in love so i don't know what its like but i know it has to be amazing and to know that youve found the person that youre going to grow old with and raise a family with has got to be one of the greatest feelings in the world.

i can't wait to meet my husband...im sure most girls would say the same thing. however i think some cant wait so badly that they settle for someone else for whatever reason. whether its bc theyre pressured to get married bc all of their friends are and they think theyre running outta time, or bc theyve convinced themselves that they wont find anyone else better that whoever theyre with so they settle for second best. i really hope i dont make this mistake bc in the end youre miserable...or at least not as happy as you could be.

so when is this guy gonna show up? i have no idea. none. and honestly, its ok if i dont meet him real soon bc i dont wanna get married real soon. there are so many other things i wanna do in life before im settled down and have to be accountable to one person all the time. and granted, i know its a little different when youve met that one person bc you want to share those life experiences with them but for me, right now, i dont wanna live my life on pause bc im waiting for that person to do stuff with. i feel like i might miss out on a lot in life if i do that. youre going to have the rest of your life with him...youll have plenty of time then!! so..these are my thoughts...girls out there moping bc youre single and youre friends are getting married...stop. im already going to like 5 weddings this summer so its not like i know what youre feeling. my point is...youre going to waste a lot of your life if you just wait around for your prince charming to come and sweep you off your feet, or if you wait around for that one guy to like you, or if you try to make it work with the wrong guy. God's timing is PERFECT. live your life...otherwise youre gonna miss out...i promise.