this is the real world...austin.
two blogs in one day? yes, its true...but the fact that i took off a half day at work might have something to do with that. why? well, when the weather is this great you cant sit inside an office. well, you might be able to, but i cant. so out on my balcony is where i am - it beats that office chair anyday.
so lets talk about the real world. and no, im not talking about the reality show on mtv where 7 strangers are picked to live in a house and have their lives taped. im talking about this real world that you supposedly enter once youve graduated college. for some it looks like moving back with the parents bc rent is free and responsibilities are low. for others it looks like getting that first 'real' job that doesnt involve working in a college town with your peers and highschoolers combined.
for me it looks like this..and im not going to talk about my 9-5 job - youve heard enough about that. and getting that 9-5 job wasnt what became real to me - ive done the job thing since high school - ive learned the responsibilities that come with it. granted this job is a lot different than heb so new challenges and experiences have definitely surfaced but in the end, its still just
another job.
whats real is the sudden amount of freedom and independence i have (and im not talking about today, but since january). i dont have a computer generated schedule that tells me what room i should be in, and how long i should stay there. i dont have roommates that are my best friends that have a direct effect on my decisions. and those best friends have started making new friends in new towns and stories that once had everyone on a first name basis have turned into stories where everyones names are accompanied by the location in which the two met - 'john from work,' 'amy from church,' 'matt my roommates friend.' suddenly you arent connected by the people you know, but instead by what you know of each other. and thats not a bad thing. i have the freedom to quit my job at any point and face the possibility of falling flat on my face with no one to pick me up. i have the freedom to live with complete strangers that dont know me from adam and dont know what i do 90% of the time. i have the responsibility of managing my money in a mature way bc when and if i were to squander it away recklessly, mommy and daddy arent going to throw more money at me. not that they would let me live on the streets, but you know. this is whats real. being able to, or having to, depending on which way you look at it, really decide what you want to do with your life.
and in this journey called life i think ive realized that its the people in the world that make it all worthwhile. in college, or moreso in a conservative atmosphere called aggieland, a difference in opinion can be offensive or just 'wrong.' now, disconnected from that environment, ive found a difference in opinion to be normal, refreshing, challenging, and needed. for once you have to think on your own and decide what exactly you believe. your thrown into groups where theres an age span of 15 years and 8 out of 10 peoples story isnt "well, i grew up in a christian home and accepted christ as a kid..." you have a discussion about a certain topic and find out theres five different sides to it, not one. it forces you to mature in a way...in your thinking i guess. i find myself quiet in a lot of discussions...not because i dont have anything to say, but because im so intrigued by what everyone else is saying. people are so interesting and so different but we dont truly appreciate it bc we either are too busy wanting to talk about ourselves all the time or because we've allowed ourselves to believe that different is bad. its not bad, its just...different.
and on a slightly different note, ive learned a lot about friendships lately. maybe bc ive been on the hunt for some more seeing as how everyone i know decided to live anywhere but austin after they graduated. its caused me to evaluate the friendships i have, friendships ive had, and friendships im making. ive learned that some friends care about you more than you think...and some care about you less. some friends dont forgive and forget...luckily most do. and some friends need and want new friends just as much as you do. but most importantly, new friends dont replace old ones. and no matter how many miles may separate you from old ones, if theyre good ones, then theyll always be good ones....always.
as the sun has gone down and the temp has dropped significantly and i cant really feel my toes anymore...the time has come for me to stop enjoying the great day bc in fact im now freezing and thats all i can think about. but those are some recent thoughts on life...i realize there might be some incoherent babbling mixed in here or there, but if it were any different then it wouldnt really be me right?
so lets talk about the real world. and no, im not talking about the reality show on mtv where 7 strangers are picked to live in a house and have their lives taped. im talking about this real world that you supposedly enter once youve graduated college. for some it looks like moving back with the parents bc rent is free and responsibilities are low. for others it looks like getting that first 'real' job that doesnt involve working in a college town with your peers and highschoolers combined.
for me it looks like this..and im not going to talk about my 9-5 job - youve heard enough about that. and getting that 9-5 job wasnt what became real to me - ive done the job thing since high school - ive learned the responsibilities that come with it. granted this job is a lot different than heb so new challenges and experiences have definitely surfaced but in the end, its still just
another job.
whats real is the sudden amount of freedom and independence i have (and im not talking about today, but since january). i dont have a computer generated schedule that tells me what room i should be in, and how long i should stay there. i dont have roommates that are my best friends that have a direct effect on my decisions. and those best friends have started making new friends in new towns and stories that once had everyone on a first name basis have turned into stories where everyones names are accompanied by the location in which the two met - 'john from work,' 'amy from church,' 'matt my roommates friend.' suddenly you arent connected by the people you know, but instead by what you know of each other. and thats not a bad thing. i have the freedom to quit my job at any point and face the possibility of falling flat on my face with no one to pick me up. i have the freedom to live with complete strangers that dont know me from adam and dont know what i do 90% of the time. i have the responsibility of managing my money in a mature way bc when and if i were to squander it away recklessly, mommy and daddy arent going to throw more money at me. not that they would let me live on the streets, but you know. this is whats real. being able to, or having to, depending on which way you look at it, really decide what you want to do with your life.
and in this journey called life i think ive realized that its the people in the world that make it all worthwhile. in college, or moreso in a conservative atmosphere called aggieland, a difference in opinion can be offensive or just 'wrong.' now, disconnected from that environment, ive found a difference in opinion to be normal, refreshing, challenging, and needed. for once you have to think on your own and decide what exactly you believe. your thrown into groups where theres an age span of 15 years and 8 out of 10 peoples story isnt "well, i grew up in a christian home and accepted christ as a kid..." you have a discussion about a certain topic and find out theres five different sides to it, not one. it forces you to mature in a way...in your thinking i guess. i find myself quiet in a lot of discussions...not because i dont have anything to say, but because im so intrigued by what everyone else is saying. people are so interesting and so different but we dont truly appreciate it bc we either are too busy wanting to talk about ourselves all the time or because we've allowed ourselves to believe that different is bad. its not bad, its just...different.
and on a slightly different note, ive learned a lot about friendships lately. maybe bc ive been on the hunt for some more seeing as how everyone i know decided to live anywhere but austin after they graduated. its caused me to evaluate the friendships i have, friendships ive had, and friendships im making. ive learned that some friends care about you more than you think...and some care about you less. some friends dont forgive and forget...luckily most do. and some friends need and want new friends just as much as you do. but most importantly, new friends dont replace old ones. and no matter how many miles may separate you from old ones, if theyre good ones, then theyll always be good ones....always.
as the sun has gone down and the temp has dropped significantly and i cant really feel my toes anymore...the time has come for me to stop enjoying the great day bc in fact im now freezing and thats all i can think about. but those are some recent thoughts on life...i realize there might be some incoherent babbling mixed in here or there, but if it were any different then it wouldnt really be me right?
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