what do you get when you take a little girl from korea, adopt her at 5 months, and raise her in a white family?
me. here are my profound thoughts. enjoy them.


Monday, November 29, 2004

i feel like i lived in a car this week

well, i survived my first interview. i was incredibly nervous going into it but calmed down after a bit. i wont find out anything for another week or two though. so in the meanwhile i need to keep on looking for a job...i got to have my first thanksgiving in dallas this week. eileen took me in and so i got have my second thanksgiving meal of the year and it was fabulous. funniest thing though..her mom accidently mixed up the cinnamon with some other spicy ingredient like cayenne pepper or something in the apple pie. needless to say...eileen made another one the next day. speaking of the next day...game day. or should i say, losing day? man..that was a rough game. we had a chance at first and then we just lost it and everything went downhill. im so disappointed that making a road trip to see a bowl game doesnt even sound appealing anymore. who wants to pay money for a ticket to see your qb get sacked 3 times in a row? so besides the game, dallas was great. i got to stay with christian and max. no, max isnt her live-in boyfriend...its a dog. kinda a big dog too. but that doesnt stop him from wanting to spoon on the couch at nite. i think he got a better nites sleep...but hes cute so ill let it go. so i got back from dallas and then got back in the car the next day to go back to austin. got to see bob and mitch perform an outstanding show. mitch watkins is pretty much amazing at guitar and bob is so entertaining. live music is so great.
and now its sunday and im back in cs and its so good to not be in a car. really good.

Monday, November 22, 2004

job interview

yeah that's right...my very first 'real job' interview. heb doesnt count to me although i guess it is a job..its not a 'real job,' at least not to me. so yeah...real job interview on tuesday at 930AM so PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!!! im pretty much terrified about the entire interview process so prayers are greatly appreciated. ill let yall know what happens! thanks!!!!

Friday, November 12, 2004

thanksgiving

i cant believe i forgot to include my thanksgiving festivities. yeah..my family celebrated thanksgiving...a little early this year. and it was celebrated on a saturday - we threw out the traditional thursday idea. but yeah, for multiple reasons we had to have it a little early this year...most of the fam will be out of town, my brother has to work etc.so we celebrated as if it was any other thanksgiving...turkey, dressing, pumpkin pie..the real deal. my brother even brought his girlfriend, audrey. he's pretty brave having her meet the parents and all. hopefully we didnt scare her off too much.

this is how thanksgiving went...i spent the day glued to the tv hoping with everything in me that a&m would beat ou. meanwhile my brother in law is celebrating...loudly...everytime ou made a touchdown. not because he actually likes the team, he just knew it would irritate me. it did. meanwhile my brother and audrey are talking to my mom and my brother is probably praying that my mom doesnt do something weird or bring out old baby pics. my dad is taking a nap...bc he's tired from...just being old maybe? my sister is chasing berkeley and ellie around the house trying to prevent berkeley from breaking something and ellie from eating something inedible that she might happen to find. eventually the food is ready and i excuse myself for the first ten minutes while the game finishes only to come back with a pout and have my brother in law rub in the loss. i manage to stay out of most of the boring conversation until my mom starts throwing in questions about my plans and the job search and that soon becomes unpleasant and i just tell her id rather not talk about it. so luckily the conversation moves on and its time to dive into one of seven pumpkin pies that were made. oh, and we had an apple pie too...like that was necessary. so thanksgiving comes to a close and we're all sent home with lots of tupperware dishes full of leftovers and a pumpkin pie. just like every other year...just 3 weeks early. ill admit i was even confused driving thru my neighborhood on my way in seeing people playing golf and was thinking...why arent you people home with your families?? its thanksgiving!! oh wait...no its not...

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

opportunities

so job searching and finding your future or direction in general can be a real stressful situation. and people will tell you to trust in the Lord b/c everything will work out, that He has a plan for you, that you just gotta surrender it to Him etc...now...don't get me wrong, I don't think any of the latter is untrue. however, sometimes its just easier said than done. sometimes you can pray till you lose your voice and feel no more peace than when you started. call it a lack of faith or whatever, but im just being honest. its been hard as the days dwindle down and im approaching the less than one month stage.

but...i should know how the Lord works with me, b/c this has happened before. i get way stressed out...lose sleep...have minor breakdowns etc...but then the Lord gives me a little somethin to keep me afloat. now, im not saying that ive recently gotten any job opportunities or anything like that, but the stress has gone down. there was a chance i was going to be roommates with morgan in austin but that kinda fell thru about as fast as it came about but thats not her fault. she cant help that she just keeps getting job offers! i just wish she could pawn off some to me! and then recently my casey has been keeping her ear out for jobs in austin and heard of one and let me know about it. so who knows what will happen with that. but whether i get it or not, i know that the Lord is in control and sometimes has to let me have a panic attack to realize how much i need Him. and that sounds so cliche but its true...at least for me. i dont wish it upon anyone to have to have a breakdown before they realize they need the Lord. however, with my stubborness and clouded vision sometimes - its what it takes. so..thats my life for the moment. ill keep ya posted.

Monday, November 08, 2004

water spoons

i had the pleasure, or rather pain, of playing a game i wasnt familiar with - water spoons. this game could also be referred to as 'how much pain you can be in from drinking water or from trying to not pee in your pants' anyways, its just a variation of the card game, spoons, except that if you dont get a spoon - you have to drink water...lots of it.

we started the game off with small cups but that just wasnt having a quick enough effect and quickly upgraded to those huge cups you get at football games when you pay for a four dollar coke. i dont think anyone anticipated the game being so entertaining. it seemed like bryan was drinking water every round, but blamed it on his unfortunate seat. eileen played 3 or 4 rounds before actually remembering how to play and has evidently done that before? kelly and eileen went thru physical pain just drinking the water...eileen looked miserable as she took tiny sips and kel complained of shoulder pain and collarbone cramping. needless to say, those three quit early. so that left christian, rielly, ben, ryan, and myself. christian kinda broke the table during a fight for a spoon which she disappointedly lost. we got to the point where no spoons were left so then we just kept drinking water and basically waited till someone burst...literally. rielly kept talking about kidney stones and ben just pretended to be drinking the water but was really just holding an empty cup up to his mouth. so then we just waited...and waited..and i was evidently the only one about to lose it so i finally gave up and went. then everyone just went home so there wasnt really a winner. so basically we all drank an excessive for no good reason.

i think i went to the bathroom about 7 times before i even got into bed an hour later. poor christian woke up in the middle of the nite about that many times. the game seemed so fun while we were playing...but i think we all decided that that would be our first and last time to play...

Monday, November 01, 2004

disappointing weekend

ever have a weekend where things keep going wrong and eventually wrong things don't even phase you. yeah...this weekend was kinda like that. it had so much darn potential too..for one, i didnt have to work at all so that was pretty amazing.

saturday nite...aggie football. i cant even really describe the disappointment in this one. luckily, there were other schools with huge upsets as well so it was kinda comforting knowing there were other campuses holding their heads in shame not wanting to claim their football team. still...losing..to baylor..in overtime...that sentence should never come out of anyones mouth...

so sat nite continued...ever heard of the movie 'somethings gotta give'? well, if you havent, let me go ahead and give you a summary so that you dont have to watch it. its basically about old people and them finding love..in young people. did i mention that you see jack nicholsons naked butt and diane keaton's whole naked body? yeah..thats enough to scar you for the rest of your life...needless to say, we didnt even make it to the end of the movie

sunday...flat tire. awesome. something with me and flat tires..i dunno..we're a winning pair though. within the last two years ive had 3 blowouts, one flat, 6 going on 7 new tires. you dont have to be a rocket scientist to see something wrong with that.

sunday nite...trick or treating. i show up to pick up kita. shes not there - she had gone trick or treating with her auntie. although i told her 6ish and showed up around 530, she evidently wasnt sure i was going to come so she left. wouldnt have hurt so much if i hadnt hung out with her monday, got her a costume, and got pretty excited when she said she wanted to go with me. oh well...i ended up sharing jaclyns girls with her which was lots of fun...and im glad that kita was able to go regardless.

so yeah..it was just one of those weekends...but if anything, i know this week will be better..it has to be.