what do you get when you take a little girl from korea, adopt her at 5 months, and raise her in a white family? me. here are my profound thoughts. enjoy them.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
easter weekend
so i got my first real holiday on friday and it was wonderful! i decided to celebrate by going to dallas to see eileen and christian for a couple of days. so on thursday at 5 o'clock on the dot i left my office and got in the car to make the trek to eileens house...which isnt really in dallas...as christian has said before..its more like oklahoma. i now know what she's talking about. got in my car at 5...got out of my car at 945. yeah, thats right. i did get a little lost at one point bc of a misunderstanding with a street name but its not like it put me way outta the way...almost 5 hours in the car! i thought i was going to die.
but anyways, spent the nite at eileens and it was great to see her and catch up. friday we went to christians and ate lunch by the pool. then eileen went to work and christian and i laid on couches for about 5 hours and it was amazing. we did take one break to super target to find dinner...after browsing the clothes, shoes, and cookbooks we tackled the task at hand and finally decided to make tacos. and when i say finally i mean we were probably in target for an hour. went thru this real weird guys checkout line who would move his lips as though to form words yet barely any sound came out...and then he would play that he was like offended that we werent responding. i almost feel like sign language would have been more appropriate in that situation...weirdo. so we got back to the apt...watched more basketball and other various tv shows and made dinner.
the next day, sat. the three of us went shopping but ended up with nothing sadly. eileen left to celebrate her moms bday and christian and i went back to the apt and yeah, you guessed it...back on the couches. after some tv watching/napping, i decided to head back to austin.
on sunday i did the normal easter festivities with the fam...had a great easter lunch with ham and all the fixins. and my niece ellie...probably the cutest little asian girl ive ever seen. pigtails, pink dress, pink hat...oh, absolutely adorable! and heres a cute thing...she calls my dad 'p-pa' and my mom 'p-ma' or 'tree' my poor mom..she just wants to be called grandma and sometimes she gets 'tree' kids say the darndest things right?
so all in all..an eventful weekend with lots of driving...i think ill stay in town this weekend.
austin is freakin great and im proud to live here. right now, springtime, the weather is absolutely beautiful!!! for instance, lunch yesterday, i ate by the lake. yeah, thats right..not like i was at a restaurant and could see the lake from afar...i was about 20 feet away from getting in the lake. i would have been tempted had i not had to return to work and being all wet might be uncomfortable for the rest of my work day. but yeah, the weather was amazing...i was in the back of my crv eating my lunch..getting some sun..and all with a lakeside view.
speaking of eating..the food is great in austin. lots of distinctly austin places that are eclectic and cute and have great food. music? well, if you know anything about austin you know it has great music. ACL? SXSW? oh yeah. my friend from work volunteered at sxsw all week and got some of the music bags that you get if you have a pass or something (basically if you pay a lot of money). but anyways, she brought one to work and let me pick and choose stuff out of it. it was like christmas! magazines, cds, coupons for restaurants...there were like 50 things in it! made me appreciate austin even a little more. i didnt get to partake in sxsw bc i was without funds but next year i think ill make the splurge...
austin is a great mix. it has the outdoorsy stuff, the biking, the climbing, the lakes, the trails. and its got a great downtown...which ive grown to love a lot. and not necessarily the night life downtown. thats fun too however the middle of day downtown with the great shops and restaurants is just as fun. wouldnt mind moving downtown if it werent so pricey. although i practically spent my whole life in austin, i never really experienced downtown. lived pretty far north during high school...so north that true austinites probably wouldnt even count it as austin. plus i didnt go downtown tons bc well, you arent old enough to go in hs. so now, being 23...almost 24..yikes...im for the first time really enjoying the city for what its worth and im happy to be here. would be great if i had more friends bc ive come to realize that i dont have many of those..they all seem to be in other cities..and states. but im trying to make more...its a process and you gotta really put yourself out there but in the end its worth it. if anything, maybe i can just convince everyone to come live here right? right now im working on getting ruth down here and kel should be here as soon as she leaves vail. everyone should move here and we can have our families and raise our kids together and stuff...that would be cute huh? :) consider this my official invitation. besides, i dont see why anyone wouldnt wanna live here...
im single. and thats ok. honestly...im actually real content with this fact right now. i am nowhere near being ready to be married and i know that. and this is not to say that my millions of friends who are my age or younger who are married, engaged, or close to that, arent ready. they have found who they want to spend the rest of their lives with and thats gotta be awesome - so all my happiness in the world to them. but for me, its just not time. i am not mentally, emotionally, or spiritually ready to be married right now and i know that. the idea of it honestly kinda freaks me out when i think about it...however, i know that one day i will be ready and it will be great. which leads me to my thoughts about my future husband.
i dont know who this lucky :) guy is going to be right now and i think im going to try and stop looking. not that im like registering on online dating sites or trying to get a date a week or stuff like that but i guess what i mean to say is that im going to stop worrying about not being married by the time im x years old. you cant put time limits on God's plan bc when it comes down to it, its not really up to you. i know that right now the Lord is preparing someone for me as He is also preparing me for him. and to think about how God is going to pick someone out who is perfect for you is kinda cool. this person is going to be your best friend in life...they're going to wanna spend the entire rest of their life with one person and that is going to be you...weird to think about, huh? all those little idiosyncratic things that you do that drive other people crazy - they will find endearing and love you for it. you won't care what other people think of you bc you'll know that this one person loves you more than anything. and maybe you think im a hopeless romantic for saying stuff like this but i honestly believe it. ive never fallen in love so i don't know what its like but i know it has to be amazing and to know that youve found the person that youre going to grow old with and raise a family with has got to be one of the greatest feelings in the world.
i can't wait to meet my husband...im sure most girls would say the same thing. however i think some cant wait so badly that they settle for someone else for whatever reason. whether its bc theyre pressured to get married bc all of their friends are and they think theyre running outta time, or bc theyve convinced themselves that they wont find anyone else better that whoever theyre with so they settle for second best. i really hope i dont make this mistake bc in the end youre miserable...or at least not as happy as you could be.
so when is this guy gonna show up? i have no idea. none. and honestly, its ok if i dont meet him real soon bc i dont wanna get married real soon. there are so many other things i wanna do in life before im settled down and have to be accountable to one person all the time. and granted, i know its a little different when youve met that one person bc you want to share those life experiences with them but for me, right now, i dont wanna live my life on pause bc im waiting for that person to do stuff with. i feel like i might miss out on a lot in life if i do that. youre going to have the rest of your life with him...youll have plenty of time then!! so..these are my thoughts...girls out there moping bc youre single and youre friends are getting married...stop. im already going to like 5 weddings this summer so its not like i know what youre feeling. my point is...youre going to waste a lot of your life if you just wait around for your prince charming to come and sweep you off your feet, or if you wait around for that one guy to like you, or if you try to make it work with the wrong guy. God's timing is PERFECT. live your life...otherwise youre gonna miss out...i promise.
..and by successful i just mean fun. friday i pretty much did nothing but it was so great. im always pretty worn out from the week on friday so its nice to just relax. and im not work out from working real hard bc we all know i dont do that..just worn out from getting up early five days in a row.
saturday i woke up at 759 and real angry that i was awaking at such an hour. so i tried desperately to fall back asleep but just couldnt do it...i gave in around 830 and decided to start my day. went and fed stephens chocolate lab abbey bc he was in utah playin with some mormons. abbey is so big now, but still so cute and playful. then i went and laid out for about 2 hours bc the weather was BEAUTIFUL!!! perfect weather all weekend. got a little red but bc im asian..it has turned into a fabulous tan now :) went to the parents house and did my taxes which was suprisingly painless and if i did all the math right i should get back around 700 bucks - yessss! went running around the lake at brushy creek bc i needed to take advantage of the great weather some more. went to chuys for dinner and then hit downtown with some girls from church. we got some drinks..listened to a band...did a little dancing...little club hopping...ran away from creepy, old, single men...walked by the real world house and saw reflections of some people thru windows but nothing spectacular...all in all, a fun nite downtown.
sunday...slept in till 11 - it was fantastic! cleaned the whole apt. with all the windows open bc it was yet another wonderful day outside! ran some errands...went to church and then went to eat with people at the new whole foods market. and currently, it is my new favorite place. its the largest in the U.S. and its pretty ginormous...and amazing! they have this whole separate eating part where you can pick from endless choices of genres of fresh food and stuff. it was so overwhelming but amazing at the same time. it was like food heaven - i wanna go back real bad but might have to set a spending limit first. if youre in austin..check it out - its a wonderful thing.
and now its monday and back to work. im trying not to think of how everyone else besides my fellow working world friends are enjoying spring break right now. those were the good ole days...no more breaks for the rest of my life - yikes. at least the traffic isnt bad in the morning for once! well..thats about it for now...thanks for reading..
i had a dream i was dating shaq. real weird since i cant stand shaq. he was much shorter in my dream and not so bafoon like. it didnt work out though - we broke up before i woke up. christian dreamed that we were in prison and lisa and kelly from saved by the bell were there. pretty awesome..but no zach or a.c. - bummer.
have you seen the new AI commercial? it makes me real happy. i get all weak in the knees..
bought the fourth season of felicity yesterday and watched the first episode last nite. it was great as i expected. theres already drama and ben is real hot of course.
its freakin nice outside and im stuck in my office - boo.
i gotta do my taxes all by myself. seems like its important that i do them right. i have no idea how to do my taxes...
larry brown was inducted in the naismith memorial basketball hall of fame in 2002 - thats the fact of the day from my sixers daily desk calendar.
after sitting in traffic for a good hour on friday afternoon i finally got outta austin city limits and made the trek to cs. it shouldnt take 2 and a half hours to get to college station but i was anticipating it so my road rage was luckily at a minimum.
the trip was good...got to see friends and eat good food. wings n more, roadhouse, and gumbys cancelled out any workouts from the last 2 weeks but i always make the sacrifice for good food. it seemed like everyone was in town either for nick and sarahs wedding or just for the heck of it. i didnt get to see my mission kids which was extremely disappointing bc i went out to emerald park on sat to pick up kita and she wasnt home but her mom told me she would be on sunday. went to j loop to see those kids..same story. so i went back on sunday and of course..no one at home. i really miss those kids a lot and just wish that i could see them. next time..next time..i at least got to talk to kita on the phone and when we were saying bye she said she loved me without me even saying it first which can count as some sort of a consolation prize for not being able to see her.
so that was the weekend. al, lyd, and cali - thanks for letting me crash with yall - it was so fun as usual! jac - thanks for a great dinner date and for listening to me talk for ages. and i know that you loved sitting in willies corner at the special booth just as much as i did.
on another note...ya know when the Lord is trying to teach you something and you dont really give Him your full attention? yeah..i think that my life has kinda been like that lately and this weekend He really made some things clear to me...things i need to let go of, things that need more attention in my life, things that need less. and i'll be the first to admit that its hard to trust God sometimes bc it can mean that life doesnt get to go the way that you want it...and how much fun is it to not feel in control of your life, right? well, knowing that its in the hands of someone who is ultimately in control is comforting. so..."trust in the Lord with ALL your heart..and lean not on your own understanding...in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." It's always worth it in the end.
