my dad...

and yes, i still call him daddy sometimes. i love my dad...and what i love best is his sense of humor. if anyone thinks i have a good sense of humor, which i would say i do, i give all credit to my father. my dad and i can hold an ongoing sarcastic conversation forever. its great. however, my dads sense of humor tends to get a little..i dunno...ya know when people make jokes that arent the greatest but they end up cracking themselves up which results in it being funnier than it really is? yeah, thats my dad. for example..i get this email from 'elmer_phd21@...' and i almost delete bc im like...cool more junk mail. but i open it and end up reading a christmas wish list from my dad. yeah, its october..but thats not even the humorous part.

so im on the phone with my dad and am like, 'so..you got a new email, i see.' and he's like..oh yeah, you like it? do you get it? and im like well..you have a phd..and you like elmer fudd maybe? well..i was on the right track. he procedes to tell me that in the world of doctors its a 'joke' that they pronounce phd as 'fudd.' i mean, i guess thats what you would get if you tried to sound it out...so him email is a pun...elmer 'fudd'. so i know that he's pretty excited about it so i give him the courteous 'ahhh' response but he can totally tell that im not impressed. so he tries to defend himself and is like...well..it was actually already taken bc so many other people had thought of it so thats why i had to put the '21' on the end. oh dad...you and a bunch of other guys with their doctorates think theyre so funny...oh dear. gotta love my dad...gotta love him.

life goes on

as desperate as i am to get outta heb...im still so slow to finding a job. but at least heb keeps annoying me to exponential degrees so that by the time i actually find a job, ill take anything. for example, we're turning into target. we have a new 'mandatory dress code' starting in a week which includes red polos and khakis. no more jeans...such crap. just another way to annoy pretty much everyone that works there. in other news...

my roommates and i are still hooked on felicity. we're just finishing up season two and about to start on three thanks to kristen for buying it impulsively at walmart. oh its so good..i did actually shed a couple tears in the last episode, it was that good...

i gave in the other nite...i played halo. now i cant ever make fun of the boys for playing bc i played...for FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT. i just couldnt stop. im terrible, although better than some ;) but still...its so addictive.

this weekend is halloween. im taking markeisha for the third year. its kinda crazy that ive known her for that long. i just adore her and i broke the news to her that i was leaving soon. i was half expecting her to be sad, half expecting a shrug and a 'see ya.' luckily, she was sad. later she told me she'd be sad when i went to australia. i corrected her and said 'austin.' she was like..whatever...same thing.

im trying to play guitar again. ive decided its a pretty hard hobby to teach yourself. i dont really know what to do or how to learn to get better so i just play...stuff...not really music so much. at least my fingers are getting used to it again.

my new thing is to get b/w 10-12 hours of sleep at nite. it wasnt like a planned thing...it just gradually happened and im trying to get back down to a single digit number at least. its just hard when you dont really have anything to get up for. so its 1 now and im off to bed...my goal is to get up before 10. wish me luck!

the infamous job search begins..

this is called posting a resume with no experience 101. first lets talk about the defeating process called posting a resume. in my ideal world i could just click the button and my resume could be put on a job search website for employers to laugh at..i mean, read and be impressed with. i quickly learned that my ideal world doesnt exist except for the laughing at part...thats probably more real than i would like to believe. so the process includes first choosing general fields that youre interested to narrow down things. well, cool. i dont have fields in mind so i just choose some that seem feasible..in other words i didnt choose engineering, finance, or manufacturing. so then it asks...out of the chosen fields please specify the amount of experience you have. awesome..let me go ahead and put a big zero in the years and months slots. that is going to be tempting to pass up when employers see that, huh? too bad they didnt have slot for...experience at heb...i could have put an impressive 'third of my life' in that one. oh...then..when youre posting a resume you get to make up a catchy title for it. for example...professional blah blah or executive etc.. so then its my turn..hmm...unexperienced college grad? oh wait, i should definitely specify that im an unexperienced sociology grad bc i just know everyone is just itching to find them a sociology major. so basically...any hope i had of ever finding a job was quickly lost today. not that i thought it was going to be easy. i just predicted things like interviewing and stuff like that would be a little more challenging than posting a resume on the internet...

just kidding

im not going.after looking over the postcard for the career fair i realized that it is a 'graduate/professional school' day fair. meaning..reps from graduate and professional schools will be there...not companies. i dont want to go to grad school. if there's anything im certain of..its that. so, im not going.

rumor has it

rumor has it that there's a career fair on thursday. normally, someone in my state..that is, the state of desperately needing a job but not yet looking for one, would get quite excited upon hearing such news. career fair? i need a career..put those two together. instead im kinda paralyzed by fear. first of all..what do you wear? some girls go all out and get the whole matching jacket and skirt or pants deal. very professional, yes..but very expensive as well. my good friend christian who is well versed in the job searching process told me to wear some black pants and a button down shirt and ill be fine. so that was comforting bc i have some nice black pants but then to my sadness i realized that all of my button down shirts were evidently stolen...or maybe i just dont have any to start with? i swear i did. but sometimes i have those spur of the moment closet cleanouts where i pull out clothes from hs and convince myself that i really dont wear them anymore and throw them out. maybe they accidently got thrown out in a moment of confusion. i do have one nice white button down shirt but after i tried that one on i realized that all i needed was an apron and a pad of paper to take drink orders to make the outfit complete. in other words, i looked like a waitress. oh, i also dont have nice shoes. so that basically leaves me with some pants to wear. i feel like my outfit thus far is a little shady. moving on...lets talk about my resume. its basically a piece of paper that shows that i didnt do great in school, wasnt really involved in much, and spent half of my free time at heb getting oh so important job experience. my objective at the top is currently blank. what is my objective? get a job anywhere i can..for the love of all things, please hire me?...that sounds professional. so yeah..things arent looking so good right now. i know i should go though. last year i never knew when career fairs were so it was okay if i missed them. this time i dont really have an excuse and other people know about it so if i dont go i'll have to come up with some extremely good, believable excuses......fine, i'll go...but i still need an outfit.